in permanent january

in permanent january is a 61 page, 4 month exploration of the grief I experienced after the suicide of my mother in January 2020, her life and my relationship with her by cataloguing my sketchbook pages, stream of consciousness, and poems beginning on the plane ride to her funeral. This book was an element of the installation art piece Of a Thursday. (which can be seen here: https://www.alekzthomsart.com/of-a-thursday)

trigger warning in the book. to reiterate: TW: death, suicide (including brief mention of method)